JessiMa Ramey in a speech On Self Confidence

We can prance around and pretend we are something we are not- which is exhausting…(Side topic  { and what do we do when we are exhausted? What indulgences do we allow ourselves to self soothe? } )

And I will be the first one to admit that on the surface, it’s what everyone seems to be doing and it seems like it’s working! But then, what is our criteria for “working”? As in what is the trade off? We have come to a period in time when it is imperative that we decide that definition. There is actually NOTHING more powerful than authenticity. Why? Because there is nowhere to fall from. So even if you forget to be cool, you still are- because you are you, only with forgiveness and grace. 

Are we going to take advantage of the falling of the empire? Or are we going to continue living by it’s criteria, by it’s rules. Of which we all must recognize by now is only working for them. For the rich, yes- but for the power hungry more specifically. Money itself isn’t the issue at all. Is it? That flimsy little paper bill, that abstract number on a screen protected by strangers… The real issue is, what we decide is worthy of identifying with. Because that determines our self confidence. 

So look around, look at your core family programming. 

• What did you learn, made you worthy?

•  What kind of unspoken competitions formed your familial unit? 

• How did the couple come together? 

• What did they create together and how did they treat what they created? 

• What was their story around money? 

• How was it earned? 

• When was it  acceptable to receive and when wasn’t it?

•  How did the members compete for love and attention? 

• And then where did you fall into that system? 

  
  

Because when we answer those questions, we can see how we value and dismiss ourselves. A dismissal may show up like; ‘where I feel I must pretend I am another way than I am.’ A value can be ‘where I gladly step up to the podium.’ Where I assume responsibility, whether that is for others/ for myself. The responsibility to be the funny one to keep it cool/ the responsibility to be the sexy one/ the responsibility to be the caretaker etc. in order to have value enough to be able to then just be myself without the hyper-vigilance.

Next we look where those beliefs line up with the mainstream Matrix at large. My beauty, my intellect, my possessions, my cleanliness & health, my speed etc.

But going back to the origin story is absolutely imperative. There is no question about it- what is the beginning, where was the seed planted? Get it? We are weeding our proverbial garden of Eden.

So what patterns played out in childhood that then became your patterns, that you are subconsciously uncomfortable with yourself for- because even though they were learned, they went against your loving and abundant nature? 

When we come all the way back to the seed and witness it and decide which way we would rather live, then can we come to forgive ourselves and others. That is the only space that we get the opportunity to do so.